Friday, September 30, 2011

Datang Bulan

YOU olssssss :))

Im back with new entry! Weehaaaaaaa *mukaenjoykeningangkat
Assalamualaikum. Huah entry before this class kau pasal Eddyy. Untung badan you Eddyy, title blog I nama you. You dah boleh go ngan Mai Suhairi ni Haha anyway thanks tau. Okay la, enough la pasal you ni kan. Takkan yang ni pun nak cerita pasal you. Haha kay Im straight forward la to the topic today okay class? :D


Todays punya entry ni pada orang lain la maybe takdelah bermakna sangat. Mungkin korangg tak jumpa kat mana experiencenya. Btw ni pun act my experienced, for me this is an experienced lah. This is what I always do when Im having problemsssssssss. Plus this is my blog, kalau aku ckp ni experienced ni experienced lah aku peduli apa aku nak post jugak Hahaha ok dah.


To dear readers lah for those yang sudi kan,

aku ni orangnya kuat berangan (we can describe this as general knowledge lah) *haha tak penting langsung, but aku peduli apa so aku nak cerita la, semasa aku berangan di atas tempat beradu aku yang indah lah pulak tu aku tetiba dapat kaitkan something. Ohh wait wait that time bukan berangan but terfikir, hmm aku ni juga pendengar lagu tegar. Dalam satu hari aku terpaksa which is no one paksa act, I have to charge and recharge my phone berkali-kali because aku dengar lagu mcm cannot stop, and mcm first time dengar all the lagu dlm song lists tu plus aku texting lagi whole day calling-calling lagi and my phone pun mmg suka kalau bill electric I melambung so I can be scolded by my mom sbb our current bill this month, RM2++ almost RM300 so my mom ckp I yang punya pasal buat mcm tu. Erghhh I mmg suka stray from the main point. Okay I pun terkait kan lagu in our life. Now, already 2011. Have uolss ever thinks when is the first song were create? Banyak gila lagu kan? And in this world, kita ada berapa banyak language? So bygkan berapa banyaknya lagu dari dulu up till now.


Okay, kita sambung lagi. Kalau kita nak hurai about songs. Uhhh I guess my fingers mesti jammed. Too much kan. Aku pun mcm ntah chaos smcm sbb entry kali ni agak panjang. So, mcm huru-hara gitu nak cerita mana dulu. Nak terangkan apa yang nak disampaikan. Uolss jangan marah akak ok? First aku cerita dulu la tentang aku yang physco ni bak kata Alie, if aku ada problem. Cettttt actually relationship problems. Aku mesti akan dengar lagu. Dan dalam apa jugak problem that I have to face, that I have to experienced. Mesti. Idk, but mesti again ada lagu yang sama, or sebijik mcm problem aku. Padahal kan, aku rasa problem aku dah cukup pelbagai dah. Dah cukup pelik dah sbb dgn keadaan aku yang asek bertukar pujangga hati ni Haha mesti mcm-mcm hal yang aku experienced. But, mesti ada. And aku ni, kalau feel lagu tu, wah penuh perasaan. Kemain. So, aku nak cakap. Kita jugak boleh learned from the song, from the story behind the songs even bukan semua lagu tu berikan kita penyelesaian. Tapi kadang-kadang ia membantu. Sometimes ia membantu kita dari segi bait-bait dalam lirik tuh, sometimes dia bg pengakhiran cerita kita like what should we do to solve our problem yang exact the same mcm lagu tu and somtimes ia boleh menambah lagi kepiluan dihati mcm 'collecting your jar of heart, and tearing loves apart' lagu always do that, dlm menambah kehancuran hati, it works! Haha 

Jadi kalau nak cerita pasal love songsssssss, friendship songsssssss, lagu ketuhanan. Erghh takkan habiskan. So I nak cerita what I noticed. Kalau engkauorang pun perasan jugak. Manusia ni creative, ada banyak lagu yang bertitle 'Month' or 'Bulan' means mcm January, February, March, April, May, June, July, August, September, October, November and December, hee cukup tak 12months ni. So, untuk mengaitkan experienced dalam sesebuah lagu tu. Cukup korangg hamek bulan yang ada kena mengena dgn life korang. For instance, kalau korang punya birthday March, dengar lagu March, check the lyrics and compare. Tak pun, kalau korang declare ke break ke di mana-mana bulan, so choose one. Ini sebenarnya suka-suka. Aku kan suka buat gempak. Haha takdelah experience mana pun. This is just an opinion Hahaha but, aku da type sampai lebam ni. Korangg try lah, tengok dekat lyrics tuh.

Okay, check this out ;


1. January by Pilot


January
sick and tired you've been hanging on me
You make me sad with your eyes
you're telling me lies
Don't go don't go

January
don't be cold
Don't be angry to me. 
You make me sad
come and see.

Oh
January
don't go don't go.
Life gets me higher
I can show
I can go
I can wake up the world.
Little world gotta know you
gotta show you.
Sun
like a fire
Carry on
don't be gone
Bring me out of my home
sweet home

Gotta know me
gotta show me
You've been facing the world
You've been chasing the world.
January
sick and tired you've been hanging on me 
Time
it's a flyer
Sunny days
fly away
English summers are gone.

So long
gotta go up
gotta grow up.

Sun
like a fire

*sebenarnya ada lagu Indon tajuk Januari by Glen Fredly, but aku mcm nak show-off english kan haha so aku choose lagu ni even lagu lama 


2. February Stars by Foo Fighters

I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
just hanging on
even know I watched you come and go
how was I to know
you'd steal the show?

one day I'll have enough to gamble
I'll wait to hear your final call
and bet it all

I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
right where I belong
just hanging on

even know I pass this time alone
somewhere so unknown
it heals the soul

you ask for walls
I'll build them higher
we'll lie in the shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much to tall
and I fall

february stars
floating in the dark
temporary scars
february stars


*lagu ni best omjayy

3. March On by Good Charlotte


Don’t cry
Open up your eyes and know
There’s someone else out there that feels this way

I’m singing to you
Cause I know what you’ve been through and now
It’s not so long ago I felt the same

Like soldiers
March on
If we can make it through the night will see the sun
March on, march on 

I remember summer nights alone
Fireflies the only thing we own
All we ever dreams of California
I remember winters were so cold
Hunger was the only thing we know
And rock n’ roll dreamin’ was what saved us

Like soldiers
March on
If we can make it through the night will see the sun
March on, march on 

Till we see the sun
Till we see the sun

Through the good times,
Through the bad times
Through the long days
Through the hard nights
Keep on till we see the sun

Like soldiers
March on
If we can make it through the night will see the sun
March on, march on

Like soldiers
March on
If we can make it through the night will see the sun
March on, march on

Even when there’s no one there for you march on
Even when the days are long for you march on
Like soldiers
March on

*haha even lagu ni march dia bukan bermaksud bulan march tapi layan je la okay sbb march jugakk okayy what this song

4. April Come She Will by Simon and Garfunkel 

April come she will
When streams are ripe and swelled with rain;
May, she will stay,
Resting in my arms again

June, she´ll change her tune,
In restless walks she´ll prowl the night;
July, she will fly
And give no warning to her flight.

August, die she must,
The autumn winds blow chilly and cold;
September I´ll remember.
A love once new has now grown old.

*lagu ni mcm package gitu kan bukan april je, may, june, july, august pon ada :)

5. The May Song by The Gathering

I'm waiting for your hands
to fold around my wrist
I'm mellowing in warm grass
and the scent of you I've missed

And blue is representing
the draft in my heart
I'm wandering through thin skies
and the transparent air I've missed

Pale is my face
you might want to colour
while I breathe

I'm following large drops of rain
with my eyes on the sight of you I've missed

Pale is my face
you might want to colour
while I breathe

*idk uolss but i kinda like this band

6. June by Eyqa

Hahahaha carik sendiri aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, kalau ada pun band Until June, tapi bukan tajuk yang june, nama band dia June


7. July by Drake feat. Jhene Aiko

Uhh, this verse starts as my snipers hit their marks
And your guards fall down from a rifle to the heart
Like clap clap, let em fall slow
I know you had your fears you can let them all go
And most women are motivated so I act accordingly
But this is so refreshing that it means a little more to me
Dedicating time when I really can’t afford to be
I provide protection if you open up the door for me
Couple stares, couple texts, couple dates
Couple "I think that we’re ready’s"
Couple "I think we should wait’s"
Are we acting like a couple, I’m just trying to get it straight
'Cause I’m over here convinced that it’s too early for mistakes

You had to change up the game
Oh the weather is not the same
Now there’s only cloudy days
I can't stand the rain in July
Oh July
There were fireworks exploding (exploding)
But now it’s getting colder
The leaves are turning colors
Why, it’s just not our season
The one and only reason
Baby oh baby oh
Our summer turned into fall

Damn, tell me where did all the magic go
I followed all the rules and told you everything you had to know
Had you over every night, every night was passionate
Plus you met my mother even if it was an accident
I’m confused tell me where we go wrong
I was sure that I would be with you so long
I was planning on this being something worth mentioning
Energy invested in someone I saw potential in
Who killed Chivalry they need to get their sentencing
Meanwhile we arguing and I can’t get a sentence in
And just as I predicted here we go again
They always say the hottest love has the coldest end

See its funny 'cause I never thought this would end but then the season changed
You were my, you were my, you were my girl (I was your girl)
Should've made, should've made, should've made you my World
Should've made you everything to make you happy baby

Can’t wait for, can’t wait for, can’t wait for springtime
And I will turn into a butterfly
I will spread my wings and fly
And I’m too fly for the shit
Oh, I am Japanese if you please 

8. Tanggal 31 by Sudirman 

Tanggal tiga puluh satu
Bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh
Merdeka, Merdeka, Tetaplah Merdeka
Ia pasti menjadi sejarah

Tanggal tiga puluh satu
Bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh
Hari yang mulia, Hari bahagia
Sambut dengan jiwa yang Merdeka

Mari kita seluruh warganegara
Ramai-ramai menyambut hari merdeka, merdeka !!
Tiga satu bulan lapan, Lima puluh tujuh
Hari mulia negaraku Merdeka

*hahaha mana ada lagu lain yang sesuai nk letak untuk bulan august ni. peace :) 

9. Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day 

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends

*my ancient fav song :)

10. October by Evanescence

I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

11. November Rain by Gun n Roses


When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you, don't you know I feel the same? yeah
Nothin' lasts forever and we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain, ooh yeah
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An' no one's really sure who's lettin' go today, walking away

And if we take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head just knowin' that you were mine, all mine
So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin' in the cold November rain

Do you need some time on your own?
Do you need some time all alone?
Everybody needs some time on their own
Don't you know you need some time all alone?

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal the broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you?

Sometimes I need some time on my own
Sometimes I need some time all alone
Everybody needs some time on their own
Don't you know you need some time all alone

And when your fears subside and shadows still remain, oh yeah
I know that you can love me when there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness we still can find a way
Nothin' lasts forever even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody?
Don't ya think that you need someone?
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one, you're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody?
Don't ya think that you need someone?
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one, you're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody?
Don't ya think that you need someone?
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one, you're not the only one

Don't ya think that you need somebody?
Don't ya think that you need someone?
Everybody needs somebody

12. Back To December by Taylor Swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night --
The first time you ever saw me cry.


Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time. 

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Haihhhhhhhhhh berjam jam maka tamatlah sudah. Belakang aku sakit tauk nak buat mende ni, haha mcm lah ada yang paksa kan. Well, betul tak aku cakap semua bulan ada tajuk dia. Except June je lah. Punca semua ni bila aku teringat 2lagu, November Rain and Wake Me Up When September Ends, lepastu terus teringat plak October and Back to December. Tu yang terus mcm-mcm lagu keluar tuh. Lyrics/songs yang aku post kat atas ni setakat apa yang aku tahu je. Maybe korangg ada lagu lain kann? Sumpah aku cakap ini entry paling lama aku tulis and entry yang paling entah apa-apa aku buat. Nasib baik rela. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh meleweh nya. Yang penting aku nk cerita pasal lagu, lagu selalu ada cerita yang berkait dengan hidup kita. Hikhokk title I takde kena mengena actually dengan datang bulan. Saje je, jgn marah ok?

*kalau nak dengar lagu yang semua bulan dalam satu lagu, ce dengar lagu Bulan by Radja haha kbaiiiii 

Thursday, September 15, 2011

FORGIVE ME

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you


I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you


Then you look at me
You're not shouting
anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."


But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me


I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive


So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.


And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

*you're my one true love

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Vasectomy means not ever having to say you are sorry.

Im not being ego. I hate misunderstanding.
I just felt Im in a right place somehow.
But you're just too kind to forgive me.

I am sorry.

Friday, September 02, 2011

Bila Tuhan itu Memperingatkan Kita

Bila Tuhan memperingatkan kita,
maka Tuhan masih sayangkan kita,
jangan mengeluh,
tapi redha.

Bila Tuhan bagi bala,
kita terima,
jangan menyerah,
kuatkan semangat.

Bila pada kita sihat sempurna,
bila kita tiada cacat cela,
maka jadi manusia jangan pelupa.

Bila hidup disauk bencana,
ada sebab,
bukan sengaja Tuhan nak menduga.

Bukan selalu senang hidup kita,
senang selamanya.
Bukan bahagia kita hari ini,
kita bahagia hari esok.

Dalam hidup perlu jaga-jaga,
dalam hidup perlu ada waspada,
kerana kita hidup,
tumpang-tumpangan semata,
maka akan sentiasa ada mata,
mengawasi kita setiap masa.

Bila Tuhan bagi peluang dan semangat hidup,
maka teruskan,
jangan siakan.

Aku sedar aku jadi manusia selalunya mudah lupakan Kau.

Sihat semalam aku kenang-kenangkan,
aku idam-idamkan,

seandai hari esok aku pulih seperti sediakala,

sihat itu aku sayang-sayangkan,
aku syukur-syukurkan.

Mungkin Abu tokeh estet hari ini,
tapi mungkin Abu muflis lalu menjadi pekerja ladang hari esok.

Mungkin Kiah punya gelang sehasta tiga hari lalu,
mungkin sabtu malam minggu gelang-gelang dengan tangan Kiah habis kena kebas.
*kiah kudung sebelah tangan

Minggu lepas aku sihat,
minggu ini aku jadi orang serba penyakit.
Mungkin minggu lepas dan minggu-minggu sebelum,
aku taksub dunia.
Tapi kelmarin hingga hari ini aku merana.

Hari ini aku baru sedar

Langit bukan selalu cerah,
panas bukan sampai ke petang.

Aku selalu menangis bila tengok orang sakit,
dalam konteks memandang,
aku selalu menjadi orang yang beruntung.

Selalu punya pengalaman melihat orang,
nilai dan tafsirkan nasib orang,
macam biasa, konklusi lazim siapa-siapa
rintangan dunia, Tuhan sayangkan mereka, nak hapuskan dosa.

Dan kelmarin,
tafsiran itu khas untuk aku.
Aku sangkakan aku gagah,
air mata dapat aku kekang sampai bila nyawa di hujung tanduk,
rupanya aku goyah,
air mata tak berhenti mengalir.

Menjadi orang sakit itu perlu pasrah.
Ikut takdir membawa arah.

Patutlah orang sakit selalu nangis,
rupanya sakit itu datang sekali dengan perasaan paling hiba.

Nangis dijaga orang,
nangis dikesian orang,
nangis diubat orang,
nangis dipesan orang,
nangis dikeliling orang,
nangis ditinggal orang,
nangis bila sakit membisa datang,
segala nangis kalau sakit ni.

dan nangis mengharap sembuh,
dan menangis berharap normal seperti dulu.

Bila sakit, kita sedar semua perkara,
dan bila sakit, kita belajar SATU perkara UTAMA
satu perkara yang mungkin kita sedar bila datangnya sakit sahaja,

kita akan belajar MENGHARGAI.

Hargai SEMUA perkara,

hargai masa,
hargai ibu bapa,
hargai duit,
hargai kesihatan,
hargai anggota badan,
hargai makanan,
hargai minuman,
hargai pahala,
dan yang paling penting
hargai nyawa.

Kita semua akan belajar dengan pengalaman sendiri.
Entah kat mana silap aku,
aku jadi macam ni.
Tengok diri sendiri pun takut,
tengok diri sendiri pun kelam kabut.

Tapi satu pengajaran jelas khas untuk aku sendiri dan aku post di sini khas untuk dikongsi,

Apabila kita belajar Menghargai, secara tidak langsung kita akan belajar Bersyukur.

Tuhan memang kreatif dalam menduga hamba-Nya, dia menduga dalam keadaan yang kita tak pernah expect pun. Dia nak duga aku demam, tak extreme. Aku belum dapat belajar, dah biasa sangat, demam dengan aku mmg kautim, setiap bulan mesti demam. So Dia duga dengan sakit yang amat dasyat bisanya. Warh, bila bisanya menyerang, rasa macam I dont belong to this world any longer. Ok, yang ini sangat extreme.

Tuhan kan perfect, apa rasional tersirat sakit aku datang musim perayaan ni aku tak pasti.
But i've gained my lesson in a very pain way

*cam yek yek je english, pain way, haha tapi sebagai manusia aku kongsi, lagipun mmg kongsi lah tujuan asal blog ni. kawan-kawan doakan aku cepat baik dan boleh baik. insyaAllah. semoga Tuhan izinkan aku sembuh dari penyakit. terima kasih Tuhan yang baik, even aku perit bila sakit menyerang, air mata yang ditahan akhirnya kecundang, tapi aku tahu muslihat Kau, Kau nak hapus dosa aku, or at least reduce kan, Kau nak aku sedar, Kau nak suruh aku ingat Kau dalam semua hal kan. I will. Thank God, You remind me enough